Thanks for not loving me

Although you didn't love me I did learn so much about myself
How time in its own way can heal you a little bit
And how even painful memories allow a person space to reflect
Being ignored by you taught me how to listen to myself
I learned to fight some of the strongest urges I have ever felt for the better
I came to understand how beautiful and empowering the art of moving on can be
I am now rich in the experience of separating the past from from the future in terms of matters of the heart
From your coldness I began to see there were other sources of warmth
These other sources inspired me to keep on looking
To believe someone else could be out there for me
It was hard and hope was weak
But even though I use to feel cheated because you didn't want me I now thank you for never loving me at all
Because if you had the path of life may have been very different
I may never have found the person I am with today
The person whom I am not just dreaming about but actually share a reality with
Someone who loves me for me and who I love for them
So I realize it sounds odd to say it now after all these years
Especially after all the hell I went through trying to convince you to notice me
But I realize now even though I never thought I would ever say this ever but thank you for rejecting me and for staying well away
As if you had fooled me and given in I would have been blinded and I never would have seen the person I was meant to be with
My rightful lover
My one

Way i feel

Just can't believe it leaving
girl what you doing to me...
every times my heart is run to you
every time you say you there for me...
but there just something you should know
I love you more than you know...
but I guess you don't see like that
my heart is always bring you back...
back to reality back to this life you see
my heart is asking for you girl...
no different games...
no different needs...
I love you, I love you girl...

SHE

Actually i don't know how to love...
i am just interested about a girl
every thing happen around me always
remember me her
i know she would never be mine
when i see her face
i am run out of my thoughts
she never comes to me even in my dreams...
i don't know the reason
why girls cruel that much
only thing i know is that
i don't fed her up
what ever she do to me...
is that what we call love
i think i am in love